Author: [[Abe Brownell|Abe]]
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# Performance Notes
*Get lost and found*
# Poem
Here I am within myself and
Hearing words roll out the other side
"This is a holy presence unless it's..."
Wrong to use two hands with it to
Still never make it out dead
We are so cooked
So here you *have it:*
the infinite font of thoughts in case you didn't have enough
If I could write with both hands in my waking life as well and still
I continue forever as I have always done
Living as a terror in my own throat
No amount of water will quench it
Screaming will never get it dry
Quiet procession behind my words
Slow march of desire over the course of speech
Asking if we collectively collapsed
or if answering for things is still in fashion
This, the reason I shiver and spit like that
So thoroughly in my way I could make a mountain of it
Without giving a dime to the truth
Squealing down the rails of life
All you need is more days off the barrel bottom
Coming at you from one side of your head
Leaving out the other
All built into the apparatus of my four dimensional diving dress
Ask again about that holy presence
Look in the mirror and say living or dead
Use it to check on the status of your cooking
As it runneth over with words
A quiet procession in this midnight kitchen
Where something goes to sleep thirsty yet needs to scream
They all slow march into the house and fall asleep
Desire falling into a mountain of sleep
Only now is to exit
To shiver, spit, and march around
Asking again about some holy presence
Living or dead yet overflowing with words
Powerwashing the bottom of the barrel and drinking the dregs
Tumbling out into more "No" for now
Finding it all at the end of the day and forgetting your dreams